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Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
« on: 11 May, 2021, 05:15:31 PM »
I've not posted for a while but I have been lurking.
This felt important enough to make me want to come out of hiding for a moment and add another voice.

It may feel like you can't talk to anyone about your situation or feelings but please, please don't suffer in silence. I too will gladly offer an impartial ear.
If it wasn't for my group (talk) therapy which I have been attending for the last couple of years I don't know how far into my depression I would have lapsed.

There is no shame at all in reaching out for help. I have called the Samaritans during my lunch break several times just to be able to talk to someone I specifically don't know so that I could talk more openly about the difficulties and demons I have been facing, knowing that they will not be able to fix them for me, but they will listen to me without judgement.

If friends and family don't seem to understand or be there for you, people in this thread are 100% here for one another as we all know how difficult it can be when dealing with anxiety, depression, BPD and other mental health issues. We believe you and we care about you.

Hang in there and please don't feel like we won't listen.
You do matter.

I know it's a forum of people I barely know, but this thread has helped bouy me up through some dark patches in the last couple of years, and I can't thank you enough.

Off Topic / Re: Podcasts
« on: 04 April, 2021, 03:13:35 PM »
A bit of a departure from comics or comedy, but my recent (as in the last year of podcast listening
) has been focussed on getting back into the habit of running as I completed the Couch to 5k programme last summer and want to keep it up.  The two podcasts I listen to regularly and love are:

Running is Bulls###
Behind the Medal

Both are funny looks at running as a hobby, and both take a loving poke at runners, by fellow runners, and both make it feel like an accessible hobby that is by no means only for the sporting elite.

I was quite pleasantly surprised and impressed by the music podcast Perfect Sounds hosted by James Acaster - and as a result I am now a fan of the band Zeal and Ardor, whom I probably would not otherwise have heard of.

General / Re: Mega City block names
« on: 10 February, 2020, 08:07:49 PM »
I'm both impressed and disturbed by the level of nerdage going on here.

(After a stressful and tiring week at work I relaxed on Friday evening by entering data into a spreadsheet while Stranger Things played off to one side. Excel: it's my opiate. Mind you: so is opium.)

Disgraceful behaviour on a Friday night.  Get with the times - google sheets rocks!


Mind your grammar, darling.
It's Google Sheets rock! Tsk Tsk. Can't get the staff these days.

Film & TV / Re: Worzel Gummidge Specials
« on: 30 December, 2019, 07:56:44 AM »
I was reluctant to watch it as I had fond memories of the original, and don't normally like the concept of reboots of older programmes. However, I watched the first two episodes and surprised myself by how much I enjoyed it. The new Worzel Gummage is not trying to be a clone of the original, and it has a very different, gentle pace which really made me smile.
Aunt Sally was scary, and I like how in this version she is not Worzel's love interest.
I love the little expressions that this Worzel uses, like "Muddy Boots" as a swear word, and how he called rhododendrons as rumdedumdums. Very sweet.
I really liked it even though I thought I was going to hate it.

General / Re: Another link to the Christmas Creeptic Crossword
« on: 18 December, 2019, 12:52:48 AM »
Sheridan and I completed it and really enjoyed it.
Was really scratching my head on the clue referring to the finest butter but I got the clue eventually.

Good work there, JayzusB 👍

Creative Common / Re: Does my Art look big in this?
« on: 22 September, 2019, 11:34:19 AM »
Anybody doing #inktober this year?

Me! Complete newbie and novice at any for of art involving ink - even though I recently acquired a lot of ink on my back over the summer.  I think it might be the tattooing that has sparked my interest.

Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
« on: 12 September, 2019, 09:54:54 PM »
Thanks for the support folk, it is helping a lot. As are silly puns - puns are always welcome.

I'm numb today and think I'll leave it till after the weekend before I actively pursue a new job. This weekend I'm going to lick my wounds for a bit and go to a rock night tomorrow just to forget what's happening.

Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
« on: 11 September, 2019, 10:16:10 PM »
Cheers Jayzus. I have been lurking on this thread for a long time wondering if I should post but today felt especially bad as I lost my job as a result of the Black Dog getting hold of me for long enough that I have been observed by work whilst waiting for therapy and it hurts all the more that I am making so much progress in the last couple of months but it still cost me my job.

Much love and respect to all of you who posted on here so far (and lurkers who have not yet posted).

Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
« on: 11 September, 2019, 07:14:50 PM »
Hi, room for a small one on this thread?

I'll keep it short.  I've been diagnosed as depressed since the 1990s and seem to have a bad flare up every 10 years or so where it spirals to the point of being suicidal.  Before last year my really bad patch was in 2010.  Then last September I had a particularly bad episode and had to take a month off work whilst I was seen by the Crisis team. I returned to work but was on reduced hours since (75% of my normal hours).  It seemed to be manageable even though I had been on a waiting list for 18 months for any counselling or therapy, and the antidepressants I was taking this time round seemed to react badly with my epilepsy medication, which in turn turned me into an exhausted husk of a person who has been experiencing memory loss, difficulty in speech and clumsiness.  I was put on long-term sick leave in June after I failed to recognise 2 senior members of staff that attended a training session I was hosting for the database system I managed. Nothing bad specifically happened but it scared me that I didn't recognise senior colleagues.

As of June this year I started attending group therapy and I am going to have to go back on antidepressants again.  I am actively trying to get regular exercise and sunshine - been throwing myself into gardening whilst I've been on sick leave to combine the two and make use of my time.

Cut to today - I've been let go by my workplace because they cannot continue to support me under the recommendations provided by Occupational Health (reduced hours to 75% for a further 6 months and removal of line management responsibilities).  I'm in pieces right now  :'(

General / Re: Things that went over your head...
« on: 08 September, 2019, 05:40:49 PM »
Not prog related, but...
"Open sesame". Open, says-a-me.
Never got that. Not until tonight when it was made obvious by an eleven year old actor in a school performance of 'Ali Baba and the Bongo Bandits'. I feel like an idiot.


Well I just learnt something today. Guess I am a little bit less of an idiot now.  :)

Off Topic / Re: Friday chat - what's happening with you?
« on: 06 September, 2019, 06:18:53 PM »
Well seeing as it's Friday evening again, I am currently annoying my neighbours by strumming my guitar and singing along shamelessly - because I can.  :lol:

Tomorrow I shall be at the Southern Contingent meetup in London Village, but have no goods to be signed - I'm just there for the thrillpower of being amidst other happy squaxxes.

Sunday I shall be on a quest of electrically illuminated Klegg heads and T Rexes - if successful I'm sure Sheridan and I shall start a separate thread of our newly acquired bounties, with pics.

And then to finalise the weekend I'm off to have a final session of inky stabbings to my back as I have been getting my back tattooed since April  to commiserate / celebrate entering my 4th decade on this planet.

General / Re: John Burdis KTT (hons)
« on: 05 September, 2019, 02:53:13 PM »
I never really understood why it was Burdis and not Rachel getting the (nominal) KTT...

It's a lot easier to wear a jumper than make one!  :lol:

Aw thanks, though to be fair, the Dredd Sweater looks like a dress on me - Burdis wears it well.

Saw this thread pop up and thought "Oh what's he gone and done now?" and totally forgot it was about his Christmas Jumper. Not long to go now till it'll be making its appearance again, I reckon.  :D

Off Topic / Re: Your best ways to positivity "trick yourself"?
« on: 07 July, 2019, 11:10:58 PM »
Another one, courtesy of Paul McKenna, is to remember you ate one of the richest people who ever lived.  That's not even a lie.

And now I have I Eat Cannibals playing in my head, so of course I have to share the earworm.  Enjoy

Off Topic / Re: Your best ways to positivity "trick yourself"?
« on: 07 July, 2019, 08:44:21 PM »
It's a really small thing but it helps me not get grumpy. If there's some reason I have to go and run an errand or walk further than I'd intended to, or even if I forgot something from upstairs and need to go and fetch it I can tell myself "at least it increases my step count for today", and I'm being that tiny little bit healthier even if its by accident.

Off Topic / Re: Y'know what really grinds my gears?
« on: 30 June, 2019, 12:17:14 AM »
Hottest day of the year. Hottest day for years… guess who’s going to a gig at which black and/or leather is more or less mandatory?*

This is going to be… sweaty.

*Not like there’s much else in my wardrobe.

Sorry to derail the thread slightly - who are you off to see?  Enjoy the gig  :)
I could add a gripe about the woes of being a goth in weather like today, but I managed to survive with Factor 50 sunblock.

I'll make sure to post on topic separately.

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