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Re: The Black Dog Thread
« Reply #270 on: 18 April, 2018, 05:03:13 pm »
You're a trooper, Tim!

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Re: The Black Dog Thread
« Reply #271 on: 19 April, 2018, 10:06:36 pm »
I'm going to repeat my appreciation for folks on this board.  Thank you for your support, I will wear it always.  Ironically today I had an interview for a job and was successful.  I had to demonstrate my skills and the feedback I received was that I was 'a strong practitioner'.  So the gaslighting by my current employer has been demonstrated for what it was and I fell for it hook, line and sinker.  I'm going to let my union sort that one out.

To those who, like me recently, have felt the pull of the dark canine I guess I would say; look up and see what colour the sky is.  My thanks to those who have offered the voice of reason (Jimbo / TLS/ Bolt in particular).  I just hope and pray that fellow travellers draw comfort and support as I have (again Blaze, I'm thinking of you and your wife).

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Re: The Black Dog Thread
« Reply #272 on: 19 April, 2018, 10:56:55 pm »
Great news on the interview, Tjm, and congratulations. You are obviously too good for the other place!


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Re: The Black Dog Thread
« Reply #273 on: 28 April, 2018, 09:47:02 am »
Urrrgh, kicking this pup back from the threshold repeatedly is so damn tiring.  Successful so far these past months, but flippineck, it takes up a lot of time and attention: I feel like I have to actively concentrate on everything I'm thinking and doing and constantly steer myself back on track - 'mindfulness' sounds like such a peaceful zenlike state, but brother, it ain't that at all.

But still - keeping on keeping on, well worth it.

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Re: The Black Dog Thread
« Reply #274 on: 28 April, 2018, 10:33:29 am »
Sorry to hear the dark hound is still nipping at you, Tordels, but glad you're keeping it at bay.

I'm always a bit wary of throwing in my two pennies here because it's different for everybody. Before I lost everything, and whilst I was in the process of losing it, Funky Fido was ever present in my life, its teeth at my throat. Since then, however, it's only made fleeting appearances of a much weaker character.

I would never be so trite as to claim I'm "cured" but the fact is, in my case at least, things can get almost unbelievably better. I wish I knew "the secret" so I could pass it on to you good people.

Perhaps, though, you might take some heart from my experience and know that the Black Dog is not invincible.

Strength and love to you, Tordels, and to all you magnificent dog wrestlers - I salute you!


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« Reply #275 on: 28 April, 2018, 10:57:01 am »
I don't think there is a 'secret' as such and ultimately we are all individuals.  We may experience the puppy in different ways and there may be commonalities.  I've found, along with several other friends who manage their conditions, that sharing things we've tried is helpful.  Even if it is something that we've tried, there might be something different about their way that changes things.

TLS is bang on mind, the Dark Canine is not invincible, just bloody persistent!  Annoyingly so, as you say.  I'd also agree on the twee appearance of mindfulness.  I find it helpful to remember that I'm not actually trying to lose the anxiety or depression, rather to come to an accommodation with it that makes it manageable and allows me to function.

I think that is the benefit to the crisis state that I've been working through the last couple of weeks. (which was escalated again yesterday when my old employer decided to change the terms of the provisional settlement!)  At least it's giving my skills a damn good workout.  Way I figure it, if I can get through this crap then I might stand a fighting chance.

Anyways.  I'm going to repeat my appreciation to all who have expressed support.  My thoughts and prayers are with everyone who is currently working with Animal Control, so to speak, and that they do pull through.  Tordels signed it off bang on!

"Thankfully persistence is a great substitute for talent."  Steve Martin.