I was at the Perth model show at the weekend and it was some time out...but...........
As soon as I was home I felt extremely melancholy. I still do, my sleep is suffering again, my attention span is suffering and I realise this might sound over dramatic, but I've come to the conclusion that I just don't want to exist any more. My life is meaningless and has been a waste to be honest. Family is non existent, home life sucks, no one gives a damn, including myself and I see no sense in seeing the doctor after the last attempt.
I spent time today trying to research what would be fast and painless methods to go out. And sorry guys, I know this might sound ridiculous or dramatic, but I'm not crying for attention or being dramatic, I just feel I have nothing. I have plenty material possessions, but I don't really have anything that matters..on a personal level.
As soon as I was home I felt extremely melancholy. I still do, my sleep is suffering again, my attention span is suffering and I realise this might sound over dramatic, but I've come to the conclusion that I just don't want to exist any more. My life is meaningless and has been a waste to be honest. Family is non existent, home life sucks, no one gives a damn, including myself and I see no sense in seeing the doctor after the last attempt.
I spent time today trying to research what would be fast and painless methods to go out. And sorry guys, I know this might sound ridiculous or dramatic, but I'm not crying for attention or being dramatic, I just feel I have nothing. I have plenty material possessions, but I don't really have anything that matters..on a personal level.