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Messages - The Mind of Wolfie Smith

#1
Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
20 December, 2022, 10:54:43 PM
hi guys. i'm still here. i hardly know how or why. i'm falling and failing all the time.

my dad died at the end of october. i am in a terrible situation. i was never close to my dad until the last 2 years.
2 years ago a really bad stroke - in my 40s - left me unable to walk properly, or even sometimes think properly. but it's not woeisme because I survived, just.
and then my dad became a giant. he became my hero, my carer and my best friend. he came to see me for 2 or 3 hours every afternoon. he told me about his life and he asked about mine. we wrote a mad book about consciousness together.

and then he died. he was a healthy man, but he was weakened by covid and life.

the tiny rest of my selfish and dysfunctional family ignored me from that day to this. no-one has even asked me how i am. they tried to exclude me from the funeral. i am utterly alone. i am bereft. i am unable.

i exist for kindness and empathy. but i am in a world that has precious little of either and does not care.
i do not know how to go on - physically, mentally or spiritually.
and yet you go on. to paraphrase beckett.

i don't think i have written a more self-centred set of nonsense in my life.
and yet i have. to paraphrase beckett.

hello.
#2
Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
25 October, 2022, 10:19:45 PM
in hell.
i'm sorry.
#3
Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
23 October, 2022, 10:49:41 PM
thanks, guys. this community can clearly often be really genuinely kind. and in an age where kindness is increasingly such a rarity, i'm very grateful.
thank you.
#4
Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
23 October, 2022, 07:02:17 PM
thank you both.
nothing really matters, not in the end, except love.
we are all so very fragile.
hold those you love so very close. today. not tomorrow. let them know.
#5
Off Topic / Re: The Black Dog Thread
23 October, 2022, 06:08:17 PM
my father died today, too young, out of nowhere.
he was a brilliant and beautiful man. he died too young. he was my rock. he was my best friend. he was my carer (i am moderately disabled). he was made of love.
everything, everything, everything, sucks.
#6
Off Topic / Re: This is the News!
20 October, 2022, 10:58:58 PM
dmitry medvedev tweeting gleefully about the daily star truss iceberg lettuce today ... is conclusive proof that chris morris has been programming this particular simulation of ours for a while now.
#7
Off Topic / Re: This is the News!
19 October, 2022, 11:28:16 PM
hang on, it was judge sssssnooty who told us that the fish in britain's newly sovereign waters are happier now.
#8
Off Topic / Re: This is the News!
19 October, 2022, 07:15:32 PM
braverman's resignation letter is basically attacking truss for not being xenophobic enough ...
honestly, tories, if the thick of it (which i adore) were to be aired for the first time now it would fail on account of its unrealistic calmness and sobriety compared with the real thing.
#9
Film & TV / Re: Current TV Boxset Addiction
17 October, 2022, 04:31:19 PM
cunk on britain.
it's truly terrifying.
more please!
#10
Film & TV / Re: LotR: Rings of Power
17 October, 2022, 04:28:20 PM
all surface no feeling, as the song had it.
#11
Film & TV / Re: LotR: Rings of Power
17 October, 2022, 03:59:04 PM
Guardian review:

"Now it's over, let's come out and say it: The Rings of Power was a stinker. The world's most expensive show – which looked like an episode of Hollyoaks, only with woeful acting – was so inept that every episode left you sniggering."

hmmm ...
i sort of agree. i just don't see what this glossy and often beautiful-looking production - albeit one that was also often clumsily performed and clunkily written - had to offer anyone coming to the party for the first time.
i liked it, just about and all in all. but a billion bucks needs more than the likes of nerdy me to kind of like something.
#12
Other Reviews / Re: Sandman TV Series
15 October, 2022, 07:45:28 PM
all in all it is all kind of great. but mainly ...
it's a david thewlis masterclass innit.
#13
Off Topic / Re: This is the News!
15 October, 2022, 07:36:06 PM
i love miriam margolyes. i'm glad the showrunner got such a fine actor in for the otherwise dark and depressing and pointless season 44 of tory downing drowning street. all the other characters are such clichéd and unbelievable and uniteresting villains.

as things stand, it still looks as if jeremy anatomicalwordbeyondthepale will be making the disabled pay for more fortunate people's tax cuts.

there has never been any transcendence in this particular soap (tho they did tease us in 2017).
#14
Off Topic / Re: This is the News!
14 October, 2022, 06:14:41 PM
the lady says she is for turning.

tories eh? the soap that keeps giving. and taking.
#15
News / Re: The Great Dante Readthrough Podcast
14 October, 2022, 06:12:07 PM
please maintain a semblance of dignity.