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Happy birthday tomorrow  S c u.

tomorrow the juveys will be out guising, its scottish for trick or treating, except they can't do it on the 31st cos its a sunday.  last year i was terribly depressed, so slapped on ridiculousness & went out knocking on doors too, you may remember the fake moustash, & then i got drunk & got a big fire to put out, in latex... my moustash fell off, i sobered up.

this year i might have to get drunker.

don't be bloody ridiculous !!!
 
i gave up smoking fags august 2001.

i do use a flame thrower type thing for other pottery related purposes tho...http://www.balnacra.com/flpot.jpg">

why yes it is tescos isnt it ... i'm using mace brand at the mo ( past sell by date freebie as usual ).

i was making a birthday cake for someone, i don't have a cake mixer, any questions?

TOo fecking right !!!   see how ive had a Really F*cking annoying week, with people ( mostly males ) being total ignorant Twats to me & i want to Kill things ??

well todays, another one, after a hard days work I'm greeted by son (who shouldnt be here) who grunts & trys to steal my car keys ( as usual ) , Q half hours swear match. then i get in the door & flith is spread everywhere, i start scrubbing before i can get near the kettle for a cuppa, ....oh yeah and another male twat whos annoyed me this week, another firefighter, turns out when i was out he turns up at my door with a dog shit in a bag threatening to put my dog down. Its not actually my dog, the dog lives with son, on grannies sofa 4 miles away...turns out it wasnt his shit either, most dog owners know their own dogs shit.

long & short of it, is not only have people being been giving me much undeserved shit all week, they are now actually giving me shit. you have to laugh really. altho fireman might not be laughing when i accidently let a large rocket off up his arse on friday night.

basically, i can't be arsed ruling, i just want people to stop being shits, so if any of yous want to pick a fight or try leaving tea-bags on the floor of my cyber kingdom... bring it on & preeepare to DIEEE !

righeous enraged QUEEN BOU.

sigh...

can someone please call up links to the 53 threads where we've all already done this?   or shall we go thru the motions for the entertainingment of new people?

sigh....*trying not to sound totally apathetic* don't be silly you young juveys, i am the one true ruler, that Trout is no threat to me..ha ha sigh,  ahem   wha ha haaaaa, i am fearsom, i have a chainsaw blah blah pointless posturing & persona reaffirming, celtic matriachal democro-anarcho kingdom blah blah.... yadda yadda... and will you all shuttup with the noise, i'm tired & want a chilled evening okay !!

Bou the Queen, who really lacks the energy to fight over it.

rarrrr ...sniff, coff...see my mighty saw & fear !! ( again)http://www.balnacra.com/baking.jpg">

people threatening to kill you is a good indicator, and chasing you with a large lump of metal whist doing it, i drew the line at that recently...

seperately, I hate alkies a lot too.

people killing themselves , thats not the point where you draw the line. thats the point where theyve drawn the line,& you forgive them.

Grieving Bou.

aye , but ive a feeling the being locked away thing is the problem in the first place.
 Always be suspicious of a religion that relys on daily brainwashing from in utero & segregation from mainstream people to stay alive.

ahhh the religion thing & rude people... i constant piss my boss/friend off in ethical/moram/religious conversations by comparing/contrasting his Christian view with that of Islam ( not that i know much , but enough to agree with Shane that surely there is common principals ?)... by gum it annoys him " but theyre just wrong"

last daliance was a Christian boy, man he was messed up about it all, talk about hypocycisy, there must be one set of morals to apply for believer girls & one for non.  ive been treated with more respect by Satanist gentlemen friends ( scarily this statment is true )

{oh and Shane, no i'm not actually a heroine addict or satan worshiper, honest gov  !!  ive just known a few !}

maybe what is too far is one of those general social skills things?

i havent a clue. i feel many people have gone too far in being twats, rude & taking a loan of me this week... let everytime i opened my mouth yesterday to stand up for myself, or stand up in the face of bullying wank... then i felt i should have kept my gob shut.

" are you blond , are you a thick blond?" i was supposed to smile & say sorry here, i walked away.

"Youre a fucking shit then"...actually the phone got slammed down , so i didnt have a chance to respond..

actually i think i'm still not standing up for myself enough... altho a beligerant twat fire colluege who was threatening to tell the council cos 'my' dog goes in his garden, even the dog in question now lives 4 miles away... was going on this week telling me that i said this that & the next thing about where we were siting the bonfire & fireworks for next week... at least i told him i didnt give a fuck & he could put it anywhere he fucking likes as long as everyone helps out instead of just talking about it.  
( so far our ?1200+ display has been fundraised & organised by just 3 of us while beligerant twat mouths off about what we should  shouldnt do )

okay, thats decided then, even tho everyone was having a go about how crankie i was yesterday ( whilst i was in fact scrubbing ceramic floor tiles, with a nail brush most of the day..in the nylon skirt, while they swanned around doing fuck all )...yes i'm going to up the crankometer some more.  

which is great cos ive got to do an event shortly where i will have to interact with the most vacuous & patronising village twats.

and smile.

Tankie yur story is depressing...i don't know what emo is, & don't really care, but do these uber cool people not get the fact that ANYTHING which is creative & active, is better than a life of watching TV celebs & eating McCain oven chips & some consumer conformist trying to life a life like what they think they see on friends... do they not see that ANY-Fucking -thing that differs from that wether its knitting weebles, gardening, doing tai chi on a monday or playing in a beach boys tribute band...ANYthing will make a positive difference?  
negativity is what destroys any ...anything.

how far? i give people too many third forth tenth chances,  which is why i end up a door mat, burnt out & hating them & totally switched off. I'm too damn soft, there Will always be some kind of cretin who will find the chinks in your armour & take the piss, welding up those chinks is one of the things that growing ups all about, sadly it makes you , less receptive, more cynical & more of a grumpy boring intolerant old cow-bag.

mmm idle workmates? yup i'm on an 11 hr stretch today & my workmate so far has done nothing except ask why i havent done so&so yet... i WILL kill !


i recently deleted more people from my phone address book, these included gentlemen friends who havent kept in touch enough to show respect...now transfered from the little black book of 'lurve' to the black book of 'come the revolution'.

instincts?  yeah theres a very nice bloke with holiday hoose in area & wife & kid, he's arround at mo, gives me ABSOLUTE fecking creeps, he's polite, he's goodlooking... but sommats not right, i'll have to ask me mates if theyre picking anything up...

oh well back to work, theres a full moon, its that time o month, i'm defo going to take being crabby too far today...KILL KILL KILLL

yous are totally right, the kids who are trying to be so different don't seem to grasp the irony of what theyre doing, when the supposedly idividual become clones & the deep becomes the superficial.

ive always been a misfit freak so thats okay...except now when i'm just another old person .

interesting questions Shane, in a rush quick initial response...

people can seem to hate me on strange grounds, without even actually ever interacting with me, but thats small villages for ye, and the fact that i'm a satan worshiping serial killing comic reading single parent heroine adict obbviously.

i never, virtually never dismiss people on the grounds of opinion or belief, friends of mine might hold abhorrent opinions, i tend to think about why they do & where theyre coming from... I am very patient with people, but when i switch off it is pretty damn final. If they are rude directly to me, shout or swear at me, hurt or ar violent or drug dealing kiddy corrupting scumbags ( remember its a small village , i know everybody & their history & grannys granny ).

i recently have cut off a woman once a friend, was it cos she commited adultery & broke her husband ( an even better friend ) 's heart ? no. that she  took his kid, home job, car, dogs, money ? no. that she continues to treat him like shit? , That she now is 'seeing' one of my (ex)favorite, flirt boys? no , that she lets her affairs come before childcare responsibilities? no...
 its cos when she was saying she needed a job, & i suggested she see my boss cos there was a space doing what i do... she snorted & laughed in my face " Whaa ha haww !?, i think i'm aiming my sights a 'little' bit higher than that...snort "

i don't like being patronised, belittled, disrespected or sneered at. & i bear grudges for a LONG time, and i can be quite a bitch too. Meeee-f*cking-Owwwww.

appart from that i'm generally very tolerant...


except today, when a co worker slapped me & asked me if i was a thick blond... that took a lot of cardboard box crushing before the red mist faded. & it was her mistake anyway !!

i use mine as bin bags.

Lidl's charges for theirs, which is a great idea, judging by the que's their other customers don't mind either. i just throw all the stuff into the car randomly & pack into boxes at home to carry in..

bag hoarders, sounds like Hag Boarders.... which would be an offense worthy of the sword if anyone else had thought of it .

my breakfast tea just now has lumpy milk in it, it'll do its hot & wet. no harm in it.



slurp.